I've never had bad skin in my life until now! All I can think is that it must be related to all the stress I've been under since William was diagnosed with PHPV. I have been to the Dr and he also thinks its from stress. I'm finding it quite embarrassing to go out in public, my lips look like Botox gone wrong and I've got eczema all over my neck, eyelids and face! Crikey I hope it goes away before we go to Queenstown for our skiing holiday, I'm hoping Jason and I can go out on our own without the kids for a few dinners and drinks but don't want my skin to look all angry and hideous! Not a sexy look. And my lips are driving me nuts I want to peel them off!
Sophie, William and I took off to the Mall today for a little shopping while Lexie went to the movies with a friend. The weather has been so bad these school holidays so we're not getting outside much and we've got the central heating going all day, so I guess that's affecting my skin also. As we were having a treat at the mall I was looking down at William and wanted to pick him up to show the world my beautiful baby boy but then didn't want the stares that I thought may go with it. And as I looked at some other kids in the Mall I got all sad and thought "Why did my boy have to have this defect and what did I do wrong in my pregnancy?" Dr Small did say right at the beginning when we found out that it wouldn't have been anything I did its just unfortunately a freak of nature - but why William?? Anyway I didn't dwell on it long as Sophie was pinching all the icing off my muffin and I hadn't eaten anything yet. I think the good thing about all this is that William probably won't be that much affected by this whole condition as much as me. I think it hurts mothers more than anything when there is something wrong with our children as we have this overwhelming feeling of love in us and we'll do anything protect our children!
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